Mohd Jaffrey

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Thank you.

I have my reasons to put a dot on our relationship. It’s just that I want to remember the time when we were happy, the time when we fight together with the ’same’ person, sharing every stories we have, merana pun sama-sama…

I never wanted to remember the arguments we have almost everyday. Before things change to hatred, it is the best to end it up all this way…

I also know there is no ‘niat’ for you to hurt me, and the same things go here. So, I am very sorry for everything. I really hope that I will never regret the decision I made, today…

We were happy back then…

saya sangat sedih, hari ni schooldetto, tapi saya tak turun. bayang-bayang memperhatikan mereka bermain dengan sokongan tak jadi kenyataan. untuk melihat mereka menjulang piala, jauh sekali… semalam buat banner, mungkin itu perkhidmatan terakhir. tak dapat teruskan lagi, minta maaf. saya berniat baik selama ni, saya tak perlukan sebarang acknowledgement, tak perlukan recognition untuk segala sorakan. tapi bila niat diperkecilkan, bukan sekali, memaksa saya undur diri.

minta maaf semua. saya sangat sedih…

p/s: malam ni test quality, membuatkan saya bertambah sedih. hehe…

friendship never ends? come on… some friendship do.

to me, friendship is something that is very subjective to be defined. same goes to love. they need the x-factor to make it happened. these are the two best things that someone could ever have, but have u ever wonder that love sometimes kill a friendship? it’s not like that love kills it directly, but slowly… without anyone’s notice, the friendship fades.

i never wanted a life, alone with my lover for the rest of my life. you need a friend, someone to talk to. you can never talk on everything with your girlfriend, or your boyfriend. come on laa, pijak kat dunia nyata. thats why you need a friend. but is it fair for the friend to have you around only when you need her or him? you will eventually kill him/her…

i agree that everyone is looking for the love of their life… and some of us did really killed some friendships along the way, without any intention, maybe… and i hope i will not belong to that group, now or even in the future… i hope…

friendship never ends… if only it is true…

It’s a new Hijrah! Hey hey~ Well, Hijrah means a new year in the Islamic Calendar. Actually, it means more than that. It’s the year when Prophet Muhammad SAW moved to Madinah and started to build the first Muslim Country. So, Hijrah is moving… changing, of cos to a better position.

It’s a new year also, 2008~ an important one for me. I’ll be graduating this year and end my title as a ‘STUDENT’, but I’m still thinking whether I wanted to persue my study or not. Nine & Ewan would most probably will register for a post-graduate position, it would be fun to have them around. When there is the ‘FUN’ factor, everything is possible~! Haha. Working would be fun too, but, I dunno. There are too much factors that have to be put in mind. Adoi~ I guess I’ll just go with the flow~ In June, my family is expecting the first baby~ the first niece or nephew =)) Tak sabar nak dengar baby nangis dalam rumah. And by August, Kak Ita will get married to Abg Faizul, the same month with my convocation, kalau panjang umo laa Insyaallah. So thats the plan for now (^^,)v

I had a great time today~ Nine, eWan, Amir, Haidi, Asri and myself went to Lata Tebing Tinggi. Ok laa mandi sungai even dah tak dalam macam dulu, tapi tu laa tempat first where everything, the friendship started. I missed the time. Even when some of the pakciks are not around (balik rumah… homesick~), it was still fun. I noe, we’re not complete without every single person, but to be at the memorable place is just enuff for me to live the memory again.

Just like the Spice Girls, they are not complete without Ginger Spice~ haha. The moment she left the group, there are no longer the Spice Girls when there were still 4 of them. Hehe. You know wat, I loved them since I was 12. Their strong attitude and messages, and their interesting personalities… Gosh, diorang memang best =)) Haha~ and pretty too even dah jadik mummies. I was soooo up to the sky when they announced their reunion tour. Tapi macam laa boley pegi pon kan? Plus, I’m not the kind of person that go to any concert or gig ke ape2~ but to have them around on the newspapers pon ok la. Proving to the world that Friendship Never Ends (just like wat they have written in their latest single - Headlines)~

Talking about powerful women, Benazir Bhutto was assasinated last 2 weeks. (Jap, ada kaitan ke dengan Spice Girls? Arh, pedulikan~). I really tot that she would be the Prime Minister of Pakistan for the third term, tapi dah ajal kan? Last Friday nye khutbah pon ada cakap we should never questioned the time when God wants to call us back. It is already written… Like everyone said, ajal di tangan tuhan. To have a women lead thousands and thousands of people in a Muslim country… that really amazed me and I’ve been following her news since she got back dari buangan in Britain. Tapi apekan daya, now it is all history. Then skrang, her son puts his feet in her shoes, pelik kan? I tot there should be a voting process ke nak pilih leader baru, after all, she was fighting for democracy rite?

Eh, lupe nak cerite! Last week I got the chance to follow Para, Nazul, Nizam and the rest tengok bola, Perak vs Penang at Penang Stadium in Batu Kawan. Perak won by 2-0. Ok laa, but, to see EE4 team to get in the field is far more exciting to be watched than Perak and Penang. hahha~ Soccer is not my thing. Kadang-kadang boring pon ada, but I can spend 3 hours straight in front of TV just to watch F1 race. Haha, lagi best kan? eii~ tau kan Ferrari catch the world title and the driver’s title at the last race? kewl~ Tak sabar nak tunggu season baru, hoping the watch the race live, but the ticket is damn expensive, tapi maybe one day… one day~ (Schooldetto dah nak dekat, but I think nobody really needs me any longer, so boley balik kot…)

Ok la, from Tebing Tinggi to the Spice Girls to Benazir Bhutto to Football and F1~ Penat dah. Sekarang boley spend time to write something, lecture pon sikit je =)) See ya around. Happy New Year~ New Hijrah~

When you have a friend who has a life that is a bit ’susah’ daripada u, what would you do?

share and be a bit ’senang’ with you tanpa berkire?

actually, i find it would be easier for you to be as ’susah’ as he or she actually is. being happy with life without any cash flowing, that is just so NOT impossible…

i love my friends =)

Yearh, at last I got the news that I have been waiting for… I’m going to be an uncle!!! Yay!!! But Kak Anna said we have to wait for the next 2 months before the baby is strong enough to have any confirmation on it. Can’t wait…

Dia merupakan seorang yang pemarah, menyebabkan banyak hati dikelilingnya terluka akibat sifat yang dikatakan susah untuk berubah. Tetapi setiap kali marah itu reda, Dia akan kembali kepada mereka yang telah disakiti dan memohon maaf. Itulah Dia… daripada seorang kanak-kanak, sehinggalah meningkat remaja…

Pada suatu hari, Dia marah dengan ibunya, tetapi, selepas masa berlalu singkat, marah itu kembali reda, dan seperti biasa, dia meminta maaf kepada ibunya.

Ibunya berkata kepadanya, setiap kali dia memarahi seseorang, lepaskanlah geram itu kepada pagar kayu di luar rumah dengan mengambil paku dan diketukkan dengan penukul besi.

Dia mengikut nasihat ibunya. Setiap kali perasaan marah itu tiba, Dia akan memaku pagar di luar rumahnya. Daripada sebutir paku, kepada beratus-ratus… sehingga tidak terkira bilangannya. Semakin hari, perasaan mudah marah itu semakin reda, dan Dia tidak lagi mudah marah dan boleh bersabar. Pemikirannya mudah tenang.

Ibunya begitu lega dan gembira dengan sikap Dia yang telah berubah, lalu ibunya memanggil Dia untuk bersama-samanya berdiri di depan pagar yang telah dipaku-paku… tidak terkira banyaknya. Ibu Dia menyatakan perasaannya terhadap Dia. Ibu gembira, Dia juga begitu.

Kemudian, ibunya meminta Dia cabut semula paku-paku di pagar itu. Dia bertanyakan kenapa? Ibunya tidak menjawab, hanya sekadar tersenyum. Tanpa bersoal lagi, Dia terus mengeluarkan paku-paku dari pagar itu.

Semua paku telah tercabut… tapi pagar masih begitu rupanya. Berlubang-lubang… Ibu berkata, walau paku dicabut dengan lembut mana sekalipun, lubang dan bekasnya masih kekal di situ. Begitu juga dengan hati manusia. Apabila dilukai, bekas dan parut, akan kekal di hati walau diubati dengan perkataan ‘maaf’ yang banyak, air mata darah atau rayuan.

Itulah hati manusia…

Thank you to everyone who sends their wishes through sms, messages, phone calls, comments, testimonials, emails and cards. They made me smile the whole day =)

Thanks for the presents as well!

We had the last gathering together on September 6, 2007, I would say the last, as we are already in the final year… A sad thing to say, but as time passed, we have to face reality that we are eventually growing apart.

We had the same place, almost the same time and date and the most important one, the same feeling we had a year ago. But dis time, no accident or any tragedy happened at the end, that’s the only difference we have this year. Haha~ well, I dunno exactly wat to say… besides thank you.

People keep on asking, who are actually these pakciks? There’s no exact description, but what I really know is they are those that are very important to me. They have been with me since the day I enter this university. We have a collection of memories together here, from Lata Tebing Tinggi, to Bukit Hijau, Batu Feringgi, Manjung… and each of every day of my life here in USM. Tak perlu laa ratusan ringgit untuk pergi mana-mana cuti, but to have them with me along the journeys pon dah cukup.

We have differences, we argued… and we got closer.

Nazul, thank you… you are the person that would turn to bila-bila ada problem, nak gado pon, aku gado ngan ko… lepas geram pon kat ko gak. Sori banyak-banyak, but I learn something important about life from you. In fact, banyak yang aku belajar… Aku respect cara pemikiran ko. And kat ko gak aku selesa citer apa-apa, pasal aku tau kat mana-mana hujung dunia pon, aku still percaya kat ko.

Ierwan,miss you a lot as a roommate. Kalo ade can, aku nak rumet ngan ko sampai final year pon boley. Ko tau, kalau ko ada adik, budak tu ar orang paling bertuah kat dunia nih. Aku tau ko ambek berat pasal aku, ngan pakcik-pakcik lain nih. And ko gak selalu ambek tau bende-bende yang happened between the rest of us. Aku pon ambek berat pasal ko, cume ko nih misteri sangat kadang-kadang. Haha~

Nine, our frenship pernah tenggelam, but dah timbul balik. Dah naik atas darat pon, kalo nak kata naik atas gunung pon boley. Haha, skrang dah rapat balik ngan ko, best sangat~ (gaya afif). Ko banyak berubah, and pasal ko gak aku banyak berubah. Hehe. Ko laa partner giler-giler aku skrang, and sembang ngan ko seronok, banyak persamaan, sama kawan, musuh pon sama. Kene marah, pon sama-sama. Haha…

Para, we were very close eh? Tapi skrang dah lain kos, susah nak hang out sama-sama. Kadang-kadang aku marah tol ko kadang-kadang dingin sket, tapi aku tau tu laa para, ade sket misteri. Jiwang pon ada, sesuai ngan jiwa ko. Aku respect betul kat ko… pasal aku rasa ko tau macam-macam. Tu pasal kalo ade sket kesusahan, aku akan tanye ko dulu.

Amin, you’re the one that would be with me most of the time, time suke-suke, time susah-susah, time dalam persatuan. And dalam SEE, aku lega pasal aku ada ko. Kalo nak mintak tolong ape-ape, sure ko ada everytime walaupun takdekaitan ngan ko. Even antara kite semua ko paling muda, ko laa yang macam abg untuk aku.

Nizam, mangsa drop semua orang. Tapi tu yang buat aku respect sangat-sangat kat ko. Aku tak pernah jumpe orang paling sabar dalam hidup aku, and aku rasa gak, ko yang paling bertanggungjawab antara kitorang semua. Walaupun ko gila-gila, tapi antara kite-kite yang agak gile nih, ko paling normal kot. Haha… Ko memang kawan yang baik, baik sangat~ (gaya afif lagi).

Haidi, orang yang sokong aku tak kire ape, jugak, orang yang selalu pertahankan tindakan-tindakan aku. Thank you, ko tolong aku banyak, tak kire dalam persatuan ke kat belajar-belajar, ke orang yang teman aku p mane2. Aku tatau nape, tapi aku dengar cakap & nasihat ko. Semua boley pakai. Walaupun antara semua, ko senyap and kekadang serius, tapi gila ko boley tahan gak… huhu~

Amir… ooo amir. Budak manja… haha. Susah nak describe ko. Suke tengok ko kalut-kalut kadang, bangun tido, lari then wat muke confuse. Hahaha!!! Walaupun aku kekadang merajuk, tapi merajuk ko lagi kuat dari aku. And, aku tau, walaupun ko ada komitmen len, tapi ko takkan lupe gathering2 pakcik nih. Ko gak rakan sembang giler aku, wat keje gile2 pon ko gak walaupun aku kureng sket… :p

Peje si budak kecik, bile nak ajak aku datang umah? Takkan nak tunggu ko kawen kot. Selalu je ajak, tapi aku je taknah sampai ek. Aku banyak nyusahkan ko kan, nak wat Maggie, ko watkan, nak wat air, pon ko watkan. Tapi skrang aku dah bley wat Maggie sendiri kat sini, tq pasal ajar. Haha~ Main ngan kaco ko menyeronokkan. Kehkeh…

Kechik, who puts the sunshine always bile ada sama-sama. Penceria keadaan, dunia akan senyap macam library kalo ko takde. Ko jauh berfantasi. Kalau kite semua diibaratkan astro, then you would be Cartoon Network. Takkan lengkap astro tanpa cartoon network. 

To have you guyz around, rasa selamat, I feel strong, I have confidence….

It’s good to have a nice picture together at last. I like pictures, why? Because memories live forever in a picture… and maybe in 10 years or 20 years time, I would see the pic, and looked back and live the moments that I treasure the most.

So to every pakciks, you guyz made my journey a wonderful one that I shall never forget. I walked with pride, and sat with pride… and sure that everyone would envy me, because I have you guyz as my friends, my buddies… my brothers.

“A thankfulness that you walk in these halls With me, our friendship has become a part Of my world now, it has its special place, Within my being, life, and in my heart, Your name hangs right beside your smiling face.”